I Couldn't Sleep, I Was So Excited...

1 am inspiration:

I have no stairs to get out of bed.  I haven’t left my room in over 24 hours because everything I need is in here.  My kitchen, my sick, my bathroom.

At my old “studio” there was no running water and I had to leave my space, first climbing down from the stairs to my bed, across the entirety of the apartment, to then pray that no one was using the bathroom when I needed it….no one is ever in my bathroom now.

I can leave my time of the month things by the toilet.  I can leave my conditioner and soaps in the shower, without worrying about them getting used or stolen or even just moved.  I keep all of my spare toiletries in there too.  No one is gonna take them because this is all mine :) 

I don’t have any weird roommate that’s going to judge me for what I am facing.  No one comes in here, into my sanctuary, unless they will contribute to my happiness.  

And I get to make that rule and it’s going to be honored; no having to convince a sociopath that the space I am paying for merits privacy.  That is understood.  I even have two locks on my door :) 

And there’s a little desk in my closet!  It’s like a hiding in an already hidden place.  Inspiration has come to me there, twice already in the last day.  I love it.  I am going to love this so much.

It’s still hard because I didn’t want to live alone.  I had a solid partner once, who was supposed to share this with me.  When I moved here almost a year ago, I thought I was coming to stake out a place for our future.  Now it’s only mine that I’m looking for and I have found it.  At least for the next year, this is my near future, my present, my space, my room; and you know what?

I love it.

It’s little, but it’s all I need, and it’s all mine.  I am very, very happy here.