What's Good: Day 1

Sooooo I have no idea what's happening with my life. There were hopes, there were back-stabs, and now there's just a lot of ambiguity. 

And I could write about it...but as it's constantly plaguing my mind, let's skip it and focus instead on what helps me stay hopeful.  I'm calling it my What's Good series. 

Back when I started this blog (2 years ago!!) I had done something similar, treating myself to nice for myself for each of the last 20 days of college, hoping it would keep me motivated through a painfully slow temporal and emotional challenge.  It was excellent so let's try again. Only I'm too broke for treats so instead I'll focus on things I already have. 

WHATS GOOD: DAY 1

Art.

Something I've learned from working a non-theatre/film job for almost two years: that doesn't matter. Yes, I ache for learning lines and being on stage and trying to truthfully be the vessel of another human being that's constrained to text.... But even without that, art is still in me. It's how I breath. Whether it's scribbles of poetry and clever lines on napkins; drawings that display the strange world of my mind and contain my heart, and split; or photography that yearns for hope, and tries to capture the different lens through which I see the world.

I can't not be creative.  It's who I am. And I'm grateful to have learned that no matter how I get paid, I still know how to feed my soul.

Additionally, my non-art job has made me pretty tech-savvy, which allows me to think about words and shapes from a different perspective.  Without that job, it don't think I ever could have made this.

It's my current self portrait, shot on an iPhone 6S, edited in VSCO and then made into what you see with Sketches II. 

And being able to express myself is what's good today. 

How would you interpret it?